Breakfast

Yum.

I want to break free.

Here is the beautifully haunting music I discovered the other day. Seems a strange contrast to running, but it works for me. Found Songs by Ólafur Arnalds.

At least I'm moving up

So, I decided to change my outlook a little. Although it's upsetting that I have taken a giant leap backwards, I am where I am. All that's left to worry about is that I'm moving forward. If I don't do that, then I'll continue moving backwards and then I'll hate myself for sure. So: here I am at a 6/2/3 and barely surviving that.

And now for your pleasure (please catch my sarcasm):



ps - I think my lymph system is jacked from all that swelling last week. (Did I already say that?) Anyway, I don't know how to re-charge it. Probably a wringing massage, a good body brushing, and some serious supplementation. I need to make time for the first two, and call my MIL about the third. (She wrote the best-selling How To Herb Book - there's my claim to fame). :)

because apparently this morning's video didn't work for most of you

Here it is again. Although at this point, I'm embarrassed post this again. I mean I do still feel like crying about it, but in hindsight... I don't know, you know? I'm just a weakling.

not so great

went backwards to make it easier on me after my trip to new york, and STILL couldn't do it right. by "right" I mean not having to stop one minute short... and even that about killed me. I hate moving backwards. maybe if i had been strong enough to just push through that last minute I'd be proud at how hard today was and not feel so defeated.

ENOUGH!

My feet are finally back to normal. Actually, they have been for a few days now, but I've been in some sort of funk. I doubt it's jet lag, because I've now been home for five days, but I am having the hardest time getting a good night's sleep. I sleep well, but then I'm exhausted all day and my body hurts.

I've been waiting for myself to feel better, but ENOUGH! Hello, this is why I'm in this out-of-shape situation in the first place - because I have consistently WAITED until I felt good to take charge and kick some butt.

So tomorrow I'm back with the program, on the treadmill. It appears I only have THIRTY THREE days until my race. WHAT? HAPPENED? I'm only slightly panicking at the ticking clock. I'm going to take a small step back and repeat Week 3 in my training program and never look back from there.

So, look for a new video tomorrow. And by the way, I'm so terrified I have messed my progress up by taking a week off, that I'm not sure if I'm going to be able to fall asleep tonight. I need all the luck (and flowers and money, but that's another story) you can send me.

I'm back from NYC!

just got back from a long and lovely weekend in the citay. I had planned to run while I was there, but the hotel didn't have a gym and running in central park just sounded like way too much fun for me to handle so I skipped it. good thing, too, because I averaged about 2-3 miles walking and about 500 stairs per day from hiking out of the subway.

So I'm home now and excited to get back with the program but there's one small prob... I can't bend my legs. Severe unexplained edema going on in the G-house this week.

I'm probably dying, but if I'm not, you can expect more video scintillation soon!

p.s. this entire post is being published from my phone...we'll see how this turns out.